My brother left to barbecue by himself in the woods.

Suddenly I felt a striking fear he might not come back.

I realise I have no current pictures with my brother.

As if me and him do not exist in this timeline.

I tell him to be careful.

But still no picture.

I come to realise I do not have any pictures with my father,

not current ones anyway.

It's as if he died in the past and whatever is left of him

is nothing but a shallow of his former self, a ghost with no memory.

I have one sort of current picture with my mother.

I guess i'm a mama's boy.